A Conversation With Dresden, My Primary Guide
“Let’s talk a bit about your focus as you move forward with Soul Guides,” Dresden prompted as I prepared to do some editing on the next book.
“O…kay.” I was suddenly concerned. “Is something wrong?”
“Not at all. You looked up some of our older conversations about how much of our relationship should go public and I want to make sure your understanding of your growth and healing is clear.”
“Well, yeah,” I said. “In April 2006, you said you’d ‘strongly advise against’ my making any public pronouncements about being able to talk with you and Michael and every other guide and messenger who shows up. Then in September 2013, we talked about my motivation for writing a book incorporating our conversations.”
“We did,” Dresden confirmed. “And what was your reason for not writing it?”
“I didn’t want anyone to think I was using your status — not to mention Michael’s — in order to elevate myself.”
“Are you remembering something else?” I asked.
“I’m remembering that you gave that reason initially, but then after we talked, you understood your deeper reason. Which was?”
“Oh. Umm… If I accepted my relationship with you all as true, then I had to accept the things you said about me too. As long as I could hide our relationship, I could hide the things you told and showed me about myself.”
“Precisely,” Dresden said. “And by hiding what you learned about yourself, what were you also hiding?”
“The real me.”
“And what have I been telling you for the past fifteen years or so?”
I looked down at my hands. “To stop hiding.”
“Back in 2006,” Dresden said, “you were not ready to come out and be your full self. You had a lot of healing left to do. In 2013, you began entertaining the idea of writing one or more books involving our relationship, but you had more fear than drive at the time. Since then, you’ve done significant healing and you’ve come out publicly about our relationship in general because you see now how it can…